This morning as I was doing some studying in Scripture, I came across a passage which I have read many times before (I even have it highlighted and notes in the margins). But this time as I read it, the Holy Spirit began to move in my heart, and I began to weep. Try as I might, I couldn't hold back the tears.
Psalm 95:10 (NASB)
For forty years I loathed that generation,
And said they are a people who err in their heart,
And they do not know My ways.
Wow. Those are strong words. What does it take for God to loathe an entire generation? I think my generation and the generations below me (maybe every generation) tends to think more highly of itself than it ought. In a popular worship song, the worship leader declares that "we will be the generation known as the friends of God." Oh, really? Is that so? In John 15:14, Jesus said "You are my friends if you do what I command." Does that really describe our generation? In another worship song, the worship leader declares, "He's so proud of you; he's so pleased in you." When I first heard this song, I was overcome with emotion because I so desperately want God to be proud of me. I desperately want him to be pleased with my life. But to make such a broad statement may be a bit foolish.
Look, I'm not trying to be overly condemning, here. I'm not saying that God loathes this generation. But sometimes I do wonder how many generations has God loathed? How does God feel about my generation? I know God loves each of his followers as individuals. And I know that he loves his church. And in a broader sense, I know that God loves the entire world. But how does God feel about my generation? Are we a people who err in our hearts and do not know the ways of God? Sometimes I fear that we are.
What an indictment: "I loathed that generation." I'm not sure what God did in my heart this morning. All I know is I couldn't pull my eyes away from that statement. And every time I read it, my heart broke.